Trust His Promises


Have you ever been told no and just wondered why you weren’t able to have what you want, when you feel you deserve it?
Lately, I’ve found myself wanting what others around me have and wondering why I haven’t received my blessings yet. Whether it’s a job, getting into a dream school, true love or financial stability. When we look at the scripture, Mark 11:24 says “Whatever you ask in prayer,  believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”
So what if you spend day and night praying and still you don’t receive it.. then what? I guess this is where I am now. In a moment of questioning God..I been in this constant battle for the last two months. You see two months ago, November 5th, 2016 to be exact, the spirit of the Lord spoke to me through a man of God, and he TOLD me that He was about to open doors in my life that I would see my prayers being answers.  I remember that evening so vividly, the presences of His spirit around me, it brought me to chills. I came home that night and even texted a friend just so happy about what I heard from God, I remember saying that this night wasn’t a revival, it was a reminder of God promises.
But here’s the thing, God love is not selfish, He won’t give us his love in pieces so why is it I find myself questioning and doubting God?

“When God is in flows. When the flesh is in is forced. If He is in it, it’s remarkable how approval will be granted, how a growing interest will percolate, and how the timing will fall right into place. It will come together almost in spite of you.” -Charles R. Swindell 

I must place all my trust in God in order for his work to be done. I know I’m not the only one in this same spot of worry and even discomfort. It so hard to constantly get your mind out of the doubts and thoughts that God’s plan isn’t going to happen. This is the time for a practice of patience. It’s a waiting game, where God is teaching you so many life lessons. This is the part where we must really just rely on God and TRUST Him, I mean He is the creator of the universe, He knows every path and details of your life.

I was reading through blogs I follow recently and I came across this quote that worded it so perfectly..
“God’s promises are funny. Sometimes He shows us what He has for us and then He invites us in to the refining place of waiting and contending — not because we need to earn something but because He wants to stamp us with His image in those places. There’s a piece of His heart to be found in the waiting.

This journey is the hardest thing for me. I feel like every day I’m having conversations with God just unsure of why I’m not ready for the next piece of my puzzle.. but His word reminds me that He makes all things work together for the greater good.

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens“- Ecclesiastes 3:1

Stay strong my friends, always remember when you face difficult times, that that challenges are not sent to destroy you. They’re sent to strengthen you.

Trust the process.




Father God,
allow me to cry for the broken hearts,
listen for the heavy hearted.
love for the ones without it. impact all, and share your word.
teach me to live kingdom minded, strengthened in your word.
teach me to remain faithful and live to fulfill your plans.
allow me to be a light in the darkness, remind me daily of your sovereign grace.
change my heart and mind from focusing on things that are not from you.
fix my brokenness, that I no longer hold onto hurt from people around me.
Father, take away any stubbornness, anger, or anxiety that I hold.
speak to me this year..
give me clarity for the things I’m lost in,
open my eyes to see what is needed for change so I may grow in your presence.
allow me to be selfless to what you have in store.
less of me, and more of you, Father God.

let this be my hearts cry for year 2017.


The Unknown

Three weeks ago, I became a college graduate..and the questions began..

“So now that you’re done with school, are you looking to get married? What’s next for you? Do you have plans to return to school? A job lined up yet?”

So many questions that have been asked and I’ve been stuck in the emotional mess of overwhelming fear and uncertainty. But I’ve come to realize that not knowing what’s next isn’t exactly wrong.

It’s okay, actually. My cousin said something to me on graduation night that really stuck with me, “Always have the mindset that the older you get, the more little you know. There is always room for improvements.” He was so right. I’m still young…The world is so big, and I’m just a small fish in it.

The unknown of what’s next is scary, but God reminds me that He will direct my future..

There is a calm in the unknown. It’s the realization that although as a planner, this is difficult, this is needed.

The unknown is for growth, to keep me on my feet.

The unknown is living in the moment; taking it all in and enjoying life.

The unknown is relief in knowing your problems are being placed in Gods hands.

The bible says ‘Fear Not’ 365 times, one for each day of the year. He didn’t intend for us to spend our days preoccupied with anxiety.

Maybe this unknown is meant for a change in heart rather than the situations.

There is a sense of peace in the unknown..

believe in His plan.